Hey guys! Welcome back so day one of this journey back to myself And I am off to a good start. Hopefully it will stay like this. Got up at 6 this morning to go for a morning run before work. I was wrecked and not being as fit as I once was I struggled. This struggle reminds me though that when I achieve my goal and I reflect on my journey, it will show just how much I’ve actually achieved and how proud I can be of myself with what I will achieve this year.
As I write this while I travel home to see my family, I’m reminded of why I’m doing this challenge. I didn’t want to be this person how would lose the close connections I have with the people I love, all because I was making it difficult for them to be around me. (Or so that I thought) I was and am afraid that If I didn’t make these changes I’d lose those who I need the most. But I’m proud and didn’t tell any of them really what I was going through internally. The struggles I faced constantly of bettering myself esteem, of constantly feeling like I wasn’t good enough for any of them and worst of all feeling like they would be better off without me. I was stupid and ignorant of what I was doing to myself. I should have told them, should have told someone, got some help. It’s ok to be vulnerable and admit when you need help. I know that now and to me it’s the first step for me to know that I can do this because I am not alone and you aren’t either! We are all stronger than we know!!
For me this journey isn’t just for me it’s for the people I love too. They can be around a happy and confident person, who views the world as a half full kind of place and for all the bad in the world sees the good that makes it such a beautiful place to live in. When I see a stranger smile now it makes me smile to know that there is joy in the world and I hope that if by me making these changes that I’ll start to smile like those people, and who knows I could even make a stranger smile. Happiness is infectious don’t forget that. So if you are feeling down today just do something to make someone smile. Doesn’t matter who it is! But just see how you can make their day instantly better.
Thanks for reading guys and I’ll be back again tomorrow with day 2 of this journey.
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